BUT no one told me to the extent how my heart would completely open up to this new little human. When I was carrying Landon of course I loved him but the minute they put him on my belly I became more in love with him then anything before, okay maybe not more than loving his dad but pretty close! Landon is a month now so I by no means am a seasoned mother but I can tell you that I would never want another job than this one. Before little man came I was worried about making money after he was born and I am very blessed to be able to work from home but I know now that my main job on this earth is to be a mother. I love my role as a mom and will never give it up!
Being a mom is HARD, and I know all my mommy friends are laughing at this because they know I mean its hard because you do not sleep and sometimes have a screaming baby and have NO idea why and just have to let them cry and sometimes cry with them. This mommy business is not for the faint of heart but as much as it is hard it is oh so rewarding because you have this little human who loves you without exceptions. He doesn't care if I smell bad and have pee and spit up all over my shirt, its 3pm and I still haven't showered or brushed my teeth, get mad at him because he won't let me sleep, or I just have no idea what I am doing at times. NOPE this little guy just loves me and knowing that makes my heart open up even more.
ALSO to my parents I TOTALLY understand the worry factor and would like to publicly apologize to my dad for cutting it close on curfew and making you worry for years and years because now I get it! I don't know what I am going to do 16 years from now when Landon starts driving and dating and I have to sit there and wonder and wonder and wonder what on earth he is doing!!!! That is going to be a doozy but it will be fun :)
With all these emotions and changes the number one thing is LOVE. My mom always tells me there is no greater love than for your child and I always just say O MOM! Stop being so gushy, but ooo no now I get it! I get why moms cry at every occasions and carry every emotion you do, its because they raise you and love you more than anything.
So in being a mom, it is definitely NEW territory for me and something that I know I will learn, adapt and love even more as each year goes by but I must say this is the BEST job in the entire world and I am so blessed beyond belief that I get to be one.
To my Mom:
Thank you for putting up with me and helping Kendall and I SO much after Landon was born. I have such a new found respect for you and for all you do for me (I have always cherished your love for me it just has grown now). I am so grateful to have such a wonderful mother who loves me through my flaws and helps me grow each day and continues to teach me new things all the time. As I get older I think our relationship grows stronger especially now that I am a mom I get to learn from you on how to love Landon just as you have loved me through all of these years. Momma I love you to the moon and back and I don't care that I am 23, I will always be your little one. Thank you for teaching me to be a mom and for listening to all of my worries and helping me through this new role in my life. I am so glad I have had you as my mom to teach me and to be my example of how to be the most loving person! Also Landon loves you lots and lots and is very lucky to have you as a grandma!
To my Mother-in-Law:
Thank you Julie for coming after Landon was born as well and helping us! We love you very much and I am so glad that I got to spend the time with you while Kendall was at work. Little Landon loves you tons and is also very lucky to have you for his Grandma! We are so blessed to have you in our lives and loved spending the time with you this past month ;)
To Grandma:
Now because I have not blogged in a very long time, many of you do not know that we are living with Kendall's Grandma. It has been so nice! Grandma has been such a big help and is such an example to me of how to raise my children through the gospel. She is also a mother of 8 so she knows what she is doing! Thank you Grandma for putting up with us and for being such a great example to me. We sure are grateful for you & your love.
To my sister & sister-in-laws:
Thank you for being such amazing examples of how to be great mothers! Thank you for answering all of my questions and for your unconditional advice! I am so grateful for each of your examples in my life of how to be a great mom! Much love to each of you!!!
I know, what a mushy gushy, does not make any sense, post but on this Mother's Day I have a new found respect for my mom and all moms. I have never looked at this holiday as really a holiday and today I do not see it as a day to have a break and be pampered but I see it as a day to be extra grateful to be able to be a mom and have the privilege of raising this little guy to the best he can be.
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| This is mine and Landon's first ever picture together! I look absolutely awful but this is something that needs to be documented so I will sacrifice my pride :) |
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| Our first picture together outside of the hospital! |
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| I just love the landscape in these pictures, thanks to Grandma's yard! It sure was beautiful on Mother's Day! |
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| Landon decided to be fancy for our first day back to church and for Mother's Day! He even lasted in it all day until he peed on it that night, but that's a record! |
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| My mom loving being a Grandma! She sure is good at it! Landon is SO tiny in this picture, he was only 4 days old. |
Happy Mother's Day to all and happy May!!
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