Dear Mom.

Well after the pictures, phone calls, facebook posts and gift you are probably tired of me saying HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! But I decided that maybe I just needed to tell you just a little bit more how much you mean to me. After being married I find that I am closer to my mom then ever before. I thought that maybe my mom would not play as big a role in my life once I was married but who am I kidding?! She helps ALL the time! The role of a mom never stops, that is why they are so amazing because it is constant love for our whole lives and more!
My mom is a super hero! She comes to my house and makes it pretty, gives me recipes, calls me when I need it and helps me polish my skills to land a job! O and she sends her love each day... I would say she is pretty great!
Also, if you know me, at times I can be the biggest pain and my mom puts up with it! I am so grateful to her and for all that she does. There are certain things things and ways of life we do not agree on but my is always my cheerleader no matter what! I have an amazing example of a mom and hope that I can be half the mom she is one day!
I have been thinking a lot about moms and really how much they do for each and every one of us. I mean dads do a lot too and I will get to that in June but really moms just are amazing! I think I may be a little bias because I am a girl so I can talk to mom about all those things that boys don't want to talk about and also she tells it how it is. The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints put together a video on moms that I will post but they also started the hashtag #itwasmom. For some reason that really hit home for me because when I think back, it really was mom, there to wipe the dirt off a scrape, tell you how dumb a boy was to break your heart, pick you up when your down and get you ready for marrying the boy of your dreams! #itwasmom
So again Mom, thank you for being my example and teaching me about life! It amazes me how strong a woman you are and how much time you make for me even when you don't have enough for yourself.
I also want to say thank you to my amazing mother-in-law for raising the man I call my husband and welcoming me into the family with open arms. I cannot wait for more family fun and lots more delicious recipes and crafts to come! We always enjoy the time spent with you and I love being able to sit and chat and for all that you do for Kendall and I. Thank you and we love you!

To my future kids,
You have the best grandma and I hope that I will be just as patient and loving and understanding as she is. Always count on Grandma for fun trips, yummy food and extra hugs and kisses when you need them. I hope that when I become your mom I will be able to provide the love and best friend relationship that she does to for me. Your grandma taught me to be myself by being herself and treating everyone with kindness and never turning down an opportunity to serve. One day kids when you are here you will realize your grandma is pretty awesome! (Don't worry mom, no grand kids yet just a reminder to myself of how I should be!)

Best Momma Around!

Me and my wonderful mother-in-law!

Best mother-in-law and mom there is!

Love you mom!

My sister has taught me so many things as well about being a mom and I look up to her in so many ways! Happy Mother's day to you too Steph, love you! Thank you for love and example to me!

#itwasmom

Happy mothers day mom, I love you.

Blessings in Patience.

So with my title I thought about a few different ways in blogging tonight and I was going to have something about being let down and such but then I thought of patience and timing! So now you probably are all just like what the heck Sam?! Just tell me what is going on!

Okay first, it is not about a baby! Second I FINALLY got a job! To some of you that may just be like woo hoo yay a job (in sarcastic not so happy tones) but let me tell you why it is so great. So on April 11th I graduated with my bachelor's in communications from BYU-Idaho (I will post pictures soon, just need to stop being lazy and download them from my mom). Anyways, yes, I AM A COLLEGE GRADUATE! 

I was going to do a whole post on graduating which I probably still will but let me tell you that it is great not having to do homework every night and projects and just being able to hang out. Well, I thought it would be great to hang out and until I was doing WAY to much of that for me to handle. 

So this job search thing, I started about a month and a half or so because graduation in looking for a job because I knew that it would be really tough to find a job (little did I know how to tough) so I thought I would not procrastinate for one time in my life and get the ball rolling. Well that was a shot in the dark.

After about a month I realized that people just did not want me and then I would see more adds and do more interviews and I still got the same, "Sorry we decided to go with someone else, but you were our second choice." PEOPLE I need a "You are our first choice NOT second choice answer." By this week I am pretty sure I was up to about 15 let downs. And let me tell you I tried to keep my head held high but then last week I got another NO and ya know just sat on the floor and cried like a baby. Then I went to the gym and elpiticized it out until I could not move any more! 

So then after that I think I applied for about 8 more jobs and the next day I had a job interview for this great company but thought I rambled so I was a little discouraged but I knew I had the abilities so I would just wait. Then I was interested in this temp position that would be great and that became a great a possibility! 

Then came Friday, I had a group interview (very new experience) and walk straight out of that and listened to a message on my phone. It was the company from the day before.... I GOT THE JOB! I was so excited I could not even believe myself!

Kendall was working so of course I had to run in and tell him first! I will give more details later on the job but it doesn't start until Wednesday so I don't to get too excited before I start and make sure that I do okay! But a side note... I may be able to start doing events and marketing for the company as well so I get to use and get more experience on things in my major. But in this I have realized that Heavenly Father keeps reminding through out many instances that I need to be patient. I also have gained a very strong testimony that doing those "little things" help lift, strengthen and bring you closer to Heavenly Father in so many different ways! 

This may have been a trial but I learned to trust in the Lord and His timing and know that he knows what is best and in this case he knew the best job for me! I am grateful for Heavenly Father and this struggle and his help and faith in me! I am so grateful for my friends, family and amazing husband who helped me constantly find opportunities and keep on keepin' on. 

Also little side note, right after I graduated I read Stephanie Nielson's book "Heaven Is Here." She is an icon to me with blogging to begin with and I love her story but after reading this book I decided that I cannot complain about anything and I need to have the outlook she did as she was healing because she always put her faith in Heavenly Father and he helped her grow and continue on with her life. So Stephanie Nielson  if you ever read this (which is very unlikely) thank you for helping me through this time with your writing and hilarious blog! 

 Here is her book... check it out. This woman is seriously amazing!

I did it! Now I can say I am a successful graduate FINALLY starting on with a job! (photo cred: my amazing hubby Kendall) 

I am a grateful girl today! I have an amazing husband who held me when I cried after let downs on jobs and always my biggest cheerleader! Thank you mom and dad for cheering me on and also being my biggest fans! And thank you to all other friends and family who helped and supported me! Thank you to my Heavenly Father who is always rooting for me and helping me in every way! I know I probably already said all these things but just feel that these people really help me all the time! 

Okay so hopefully my rant was not too annoying... but it was mostly just a ramble like most posts! I will post again soon... I hope this jobs go well and I am excited! 

Happy day and Happy Weekend!