Drowning.

So I probably have annoyed all of you enough with this, but I graduate in o ya know (hang on let me count) 33 days! I can honestly tell all of you, I have been relaxing way too much because I have a lot of HUGE projects and events going on in the next month and I know that I will be kicking myself in the butt wondering why I didn't do that presentation or write that paper earlier.

This is called the drowning stage, where all my work is just piling up and instead of buckling down I have lazy amazing days like today, going to church, taking naps with my wonderful husband and watching loads and loads of movies. 

At times I get really stressed and discouraged with school and jobs, and have been thinking lately like I am not good enough, I don't have good enough grades, I should have been more involved in school and had more on my resume but in reality where I am in my life is where I am supposed to be. Sure I really should have done those things and I know my mom will read this and tell me she told me to prepare, which she did, thanks mom! But despite all of things I have not done, there are so many things I have done. I will be graduating with a bachelor's degree, made my life completely different than when I started here, grown up a lot, met and married the most amazing man, and am starting to become the woman I want to be. 

With this drowning, I have been thinking no one cares about my blogs or anything, I am just writing and writing and writing blabbering on and thought none of it matters. But tonight, I got a glimpse of knowing that maybe my tiny little thoughts sometimes do matter. One of my sweet friends sent me a message tonight just letting me know that I have inspired her, to hear those words seriously have given so much encouragement to keep writing and to keep doing what I set out to do with my goals. The little things really do matter, those few words mean more to me than anyone can ever know. Thank you sweet friend for your kind words, you really are an inspiration to me, all of you. I see my friends and family and I write because my goals are to live those amazing lives you have made an example of to me. 

So sorry for the sappiness but thank you for all of those who support me and read my goals and I hope I can continue to entertain you with my life in all it's different ways. Don't worry plenty of ranting family posts to come... hope you don't mind those either! Thank you to everyone for saving me from drowning in this last semester, especially my sweet husband that helps me everyday and my Heavenly Father, he is truly the reason for everything I do and for what happens in my life. I am grateful for all those who help me in my life! 

Happy day and happy Sunday!